Hmmmmm zzzzZZZZzzzz. This is my brain today, as I compel it to spew out another blog entry. Write something! Write something creative, you fool, (whiplash) write or else you wont be sleeping tonight!

Brain: but I haven't slept in two nights!. Im too tired…

Write or else you wont be sleeping anytime soon…

Yes today my readers were 4. Yay! Yesterday they were 3, it’s a start.

you know what boggles me ? my dead blog has 149 readers…yeah I can envision blog world’s bigwigs rolling their eyes. Hmph 149 I make that in a minute… Hey but that blog was in its early months when I pulled the trigger. Only 4 posts and the blog’s been dead for nearly a year. How do people even find it? The only reason it still exists is because I could not find the delete button. Is there a delete your blog button? Or is blogger like facebook. Enter and no exit. My search continues…

No I will not be pasting any link to the other blog. I get embarrassed when I see the readers count is still rising. It’s like the blog is speaking to me “don’t pull the plug on me, I am still alive, don’t lose hope in me Shazra” ok now this is sounding really creepy.

4.15 am and my 15^th fast starts today. Its actually sad; Ramadan just started and in a blink of an eye half the month is already gone. Why do muslims love fasting, you ask? What is a Ramadan?

For those of you who might be a little vague on what Ramadan is. Ramadan is the 9^th month of the al hijri lunar calendar. The holy month where muslims fast, pray and give abundant charity. It’s the time of greatest blessing when the doors of heaven are opened and the doors to hell are closed. we are promised multiple good deeds in return. Imagine if we were playing some rpg game and our good deeds were coins then Ramadan would be like a cheat code where all the coins multiplied anywhere between 70x to 1000x.

It's also the time when the devils are locked away. I really feel calm and at peace in Ramadan. You cannot compare the calmness the peace and serenity of Ramadan to any other month.

Peace is the greatest blessing anyone can have in their lives. May peace be upon you and your family.

The Cure for Your Depression.

Depression

My sleep pattern has completely altered. I’ve turned into a night owl. i read an article once, it was in Times magazine I think; that there are two kinds of people. those who work best in the day time. And those that work best at night. Each have their peak hours in which they work their optimum and then they have their low hours. So I have always been an owl. My most creative hours are after sunset. Well its good to find out early in life so you can do maximum in your peak hours. I usually sit down to write very late at night. Its 2 am Pakistan time. In an hour I will be waking up everyone for the suhar( the pre dawn meal of the fast)

So at 2 am I have decided to pick up a topic that is very common, known and experienced by everyone in the whole world. Something that is inflicted on the humanity since the time began. When our father Adam  and our mother eve (alaisalam) were casted out of the heaven they were separated on the earth, they  cried and repented for forty years before they were united. Imagine being all alone in such a huge earth inhabitant by no one and you have lost your only love and companion. Wow that is depressing!

So What is depression? We all know what it feels like, we all have experienced it one time or the other at some point in our lives.

Wikipedia describes depression as a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behavior, feelings andsense of well-being.^[1] Depressed people can feel sad,anxious, empty, hopeless, worried, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, hurt, or restless. Well wiki as always is spot on.

Is it a disease, or just a state of mind. ? some people eat heavy doses of drugs to get rid of their lows. Greatest form of depression makes one suicidal, people end up dead. It must be disease of some sort. Who in their right mind take their own lives????!@#

But what if I told you it’s not a disease? It’s not even a state of mind. And if you suffer from it you can rid yourself from it completely.

Before you understand depression you have to understand your body and your make up. We humans are made up of two things; our physical body and our soul. Think of us as a cell phone. You have your cell phone casing, the beautiful touch screen, the battery etc. but your phone will not work until and unless you have a sim / your service provider. Your cell phone gets its signals and that’s how your phone works. Our soul is like the sim /service provider. Without the soul the body doesn’t work. Our souls is what makes us alive and conscious. Some people call it your subconscious.

This soul is alive too and it has its needs. When its needs are not met you feel detached. Unhappy empty. Sometimes just to fill the vast emptiness you tend to fall into addictions. Addiction could be of any type, it maybe alcohol, drugs, adultery, food, social media, television. Anything will do to fill the emptiness. Addictions tend to make you forget your feelings for sometimes. That is why you choose to stay addicted.

This soul… what does it need. How can I fill its hunger.? What will end my depression? Well it’s really very simple and basic actually. you may have forgotten or deliberately choose to ignore but your  soul knows and craves one thing. Your soul craves the remembrance of its Creator. The one who created it. Simple isn’t it. So if you want to be happy remember to call upon GOD.

Agonist and atheist are probably rolling their eyes. What a waste of time to find this piece of writing. And I was actually waiting to hear about the miracle cure. Maybe some ancient spring water to drink or some absurd thing. Anything, actually; to cure my blues.

Before you press the back button and the close tab button. Hear me out! You have come this far. Why not try it once. this doesn’t cost you, it doesn’t hurt you either.do this may be for 3 days. Or just when you feel depressed until you start feeling okay again. This is actually very easy on the tongue. Say Allah ( pronounced AL-LAH) continuously whenever you have time. But don’t say it sceptically. This is food for your soul, say it respectfully. Like you are feeding a child its first meal.

Stay happy! Don’t give up on yourself. You are precious to your Creator. If He can give you things without asking think what he will do for you when you ask him .:D This article will have a follow up. Where I will share some of my own experiences too.

WATCH OUT Djokovic, here comes Sahibzada!!

Blogging is actually a job, I realize it now. It’s a mental job. You have to rake your brains, get the best ideas on the paper. Interesting enough for the people to read and come back for more. Phew it sounds like a really tough job.

Today I will write about a hidden gem of Pakistan. Literally a hidden, tucked away deep down and only stumble upon by a rare chance. His name is Sahibzadah Mohammad   Ali and he’s a rising tennis player of Pakistan. Just 14 years old and already ranked number 2 in whole of Asia (masha Allah). Even at a young age he has shown great potential and bagged quite a many tournaments to his name. amazing! Really .

You know it’s really sad I only got to know about him through random blog reading. His detailed interview was covered by a fellow blogger NMAFZAL. If you are interested you can read the interview in the link below.  But as I read further it was quite sad. The young talent of Pakistan who will one day become Djokovic or Nadal of Pakistan, is actually left to fend for himself. Without proper coaching, proper tennis grounds to train in and absolutely no funding from the government and otherwise, our young talent relies on himself to become the future aisam ul haq of Pakistan.

Well not all is sad though, he is way too passionate to be deterred by anything in his way. You go get ‘em boy!!

Our country is full of unlimited potentials, multitude of talent in all walks of life but what we lack are resources. Give us resources and  then see us take on the world!

Please feel free to like him and support him on his facebook page here.

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Sahibzada-Mohammad-Ali/293624450659696

his interview:

http://www.pakpositive.com/pakistanibloggers/blog/?pT=Ramblings%20of%20a%20Loner&prevU=http%3A//www.pakpositive.com/pakistanibloggers/dhol-sipahi-t1857.html&prevT=Dhol%20Sipahi&nextU=undefined&nextT=undefined&pU=http%3A//nmafzal.wordpress.com/

Palestine Israel war

I wanted to post my other article on the iftar delights of Pakistan but I think I should rather use my blog for more pressing matters at the moment. Palestine –Israel war.

If you want a total biased version watch cnn bbc fox or any other biased channel for that matter. They are all barking about the same thing that they were attacked by the Palestinians. May be Palestinians did attack first. Lets take an example you had a house lets say it had 7 rooms. Your friend was homeless so you gave him a room then he brings his brother who is homeless too, then another brother, then another it goes on until all 7 rooms of your house are taken. They should be thankful to you but no they threw you out and claimed your house. Not only that now they say they are oppressed instead. They built a huge wall around it too . they also took away your right to protest. Not only that, if you get angry and hurl a few stones in anger they will crush you and kill you for asking for your right.

Well it is a sad tale of muslim history. Dis unity, and evil has penetrated deep into our society. We fear people more than we fear our creator. And thus we are degraded insulted and pissed upon by the world , we deserve it too.

It’s not the first time I’m blogging, but I hope to do it; this time continuously. Even though I’m not a writer, I only write, occasionally, in my diaries but somehow I had been suffering from a severe form of writer’s bloc. I couldn’t even pen a few sentences without coming to a total halt. Its becoming better now (maybe writer’s bloc should be classified as proper disease which makes brain incapable of forming a few creative thought provoking sentences.

About me: well before I go into a full detailed account of my life , I would like to apologise for my English. English isn’t my first language so please bear with me.or if et ever turns unbearable you could find another blog with immaculate English skills( most times I thank Microsoft word for correcting my uncountable mistakes)

My name is shazra as this blog suggests, I’m 26 years old, single living with my parents. i'm a dentist by profession, currently on a break. Oh yes and the most important im from Pakistan. If you know where Pakistan is. It’s a rather a medium sized country sandwiched between india and Afghanistan. You could google it if you want.

Maybe it’s the first time you are reading about a person from Pakistan… what’s it like to be in Pakistan you wonder? Well to be honest it’s like a love hate relationship .you love its people its beauty its resources and the fact you have a country which is your home. But you hate the politicians, the injustice, the home grown and imported terrorism.

We were once a great people. Our forefathers sacrificed a lot to get a homeland of their own but somehow this generation has forgotten its past. I don’t know if it was deliberate or circumstantial that we choose to forget our past..? its said those nation who forget their history; they are easily broken and controlled. Id write about it in detail in sha Allah (if God wills)

For now this blog will be more about my musings my dreams my thoughts.